Michael B.
I'm probably going to be a ward of the state eventually. I'm trying to get myself as healthy as I can because I'm only 47 and I’ve already had a heart attack. My primary care physician attributed Parkinson’s to my drug abuse.
I'm a recovering drug addict, which is nothing I'm proud of, but it is what it is. From my perspective, the drug use was a result of a childhood trauma that was not dealt with correctly. You use drugs to kill the pain and not to deal with it, and then before you know it, you're addicted. When I'm not on drugs, you get high on life. Even having Parkinson's, I'm in a much better place knowing that I don't have to get high anymore, which is cool. Unfortunately, you have to really hit bottom first and need a higher power's help.
You need faith in a higher power because if you don't, then all bets are off. An addict alone is in bad company. A Parkinson's person alone is just as bad because you have nobody to understand you. It will allow you to have a better quality of life, knowing that God didn't just pick you for this burden.
I was very mad at God... I was like, "What did I do to deserve this?" I didn't understand that sometimes life is not fair. You have to forgive and stuff like that. It's a process. He and I are good now.
I look around, and I see myself being in a wheelchair, probably. I see it coming fast. I want to have the best next few years that I can possibly have, knowing that after five years, the prognosis does not look good. I've got to get my ducks in a row, so to speak, because I'm not a wealthy person.
I'm a recovering drug addict, which is nothing I'm proud of, but it is what it is. From my perspective, the drug use was a result of a childhood trauma that was not dealt with correctly. You use drugs to kill the pain and not to deal with it, and then before you know it, you're addicted. When I'm not on drugs, you get high on life. Even having Parkinson's, I'm in a much better place knowing that I don't have to get high anymore, which is cool. Unfortunately, you have to really hit bottom first and need a higher power's help.
You need faith in a higher power because if you don't, then all bets are off. An addict alone is in bad company. A Parkinson's person alone is just as bad because you have nobody to understand you. It will allow you to have a better quality of life, knowing that God didn't just pick you for this burden.
I was very mad at God... I was like, "What did I do to deserve this?" I didn't understand that sometimes life is not fair. You have to forgive and stuff like that. It's a process. He and I are good now.
I look around, and I see myself being in a wheelchair, probably. I see it coming fast. I want to have the best next few years that I can possibly have, knowing that after five years, the prognosis does not look good. I've got to get my ducks in a row, so to speak, because I'm not a wealthy person.